Friday, February 17, 2012

Unwavering Faith

Today my brother passed away.  When people ask how I am doing I say fine.  And really I do feel okay.  Sure I am sad.  I will miss him.  I have pictures of him throughout my digital albums, but mainly of us goofing off as a family.  This one, which I stole from his facebook account, is probably more flattering than mine.  But I can't help but feel okay because those pictures I have, he's always laughing and smiling and playing rough and tumble-like with one of his nieces or nephews.  And I guess these last months or so I missed him, that side of him.  My sadness has been increasing by degrees so that at this moment it isn't so overwhelming or crashing down around me.

And now that he is gone there is a small kind of relief.  I feel glad knowing that he's with the Savior and probably laughing and smiling once more.  I feel comforted knowing that he's probably still watching our family and will continue to.  Mostly I just feel an immense amount of gratitude for a knowledge that I have that life continues and goes on beyond this life and world.  That an eternity awaits us in heaven and that a great reuniting will take place another day.  With such unwavering faith in this principle alone, my grief feels manageable.  Love you, David!

8 comments:

Cheri said...

I am sorry for your loss, Mary. Had David been ill? Our brothers were way too young to lose, but I agree that a knowledge of the gospel is very comforting.

Alisa said...

I feel the need to say how sorry I am for you. I am not sure you want/need to hear that though.....you really sound at peace. I truly hope you are, as you deserve to be.

Laura Lynn said...

I am sorry for your loss, Mary. I understand the grief with gratitude though. While he'll be missed, he will also be so happily welcomed home. He is a great person. I'm happy I was able to meet him.

Bonnie said...

My heart goes out to you Mary!! You are right about the gospel and the knowledge of the eternities, it sure does help to know where they are and that they are happy...We can be sad at the loss, but rejoice in his happiness!! Makes me ever grateful for his last visit to me and bringing his mom by to introduce her to me since our mom's knew each other way back. I actually thought of David yesterday out of the blue and now I know why...Love you Mary! I have and will miss David too.

Anja said...

So sorry for your loss mary.

Sheila Wagner said...

Mary I am so sorry for the loss your family is feeling! I was worried last week when I didnt see you that this might be what was keeping you. Yes we know know that he rests in the arms of Jesus and no longer has to deal with the pains of this world. It is always harder though for us who have been left behind. We will continue to keep your family in our prayers!! Love ya and miss your always smiling face!!!

Anonymous said...

Our prayers go out to your family. So sorry for your families loss.
The Keller Family

Carrie said...

Sorry for your loss Mary. I know how much your family means to you and I am so glad you are being showered with love!