Tuesday, February 28, 2012

I'm Still Learning

What I've learned in the past two weeks:

eating 2 dozen faschnauts in 4 days will impress/disgust everyone around you
eating 3 faschnauts before bed will give you a tummy ache
giving up naughty words for lent is really hard and expensive - think words such as dumb, stupid, etc...

thinking about hard things is sometimes harder than the actual thing itself
watching your parents cry is a very difficult thing for a child to observe
you really learn about your friends when something big happens

building a school yearbook on a less than stellar website totally stinks
when a parent says their child didn't receive a paper, when they clearly did, means that their life is crazy busy so be sympathetic
there is something freeing about making large decisions for future years when you know you won't be in charge anymore

a blue and gold banquets is just a party for cub scouts with a predetermined color scheme
i love flowers, bring on the wasteful spending
ward variety shows are a good time to be silly under the guise of sharing talents

having a near run in with the law is very scary
knowing that your child was gone for fifteen minutes and you didn't even realize it is scarier
having neighbors that recognize your wandering children is a big relief 

Friday, February 17, 2012

Unwavering Faith

Today my brother passed away.  When people ask how I am doing I say fine.  And really I do feel okay.  Sure I am sad.  I will miss him.  I have pictures of him throughout my digital albums, but mainly of us goofing off as a family.  This one, which I stole from his facebook account, is probably more flattering than mine.  But I can't help but feel okay because those pictures I have, he's always laughing and smiling and playing rough and tumble-like with one of his nieces or nephews.  And I guess these last months or so I missed him, that side of him.  My sadness has been increasing by degrees so that at this moment it isn't so overwhelming or crashing down around me.

And now that he is gone there is a small kind of relief.  I feel glad knowing that he's with the Savior and probably laughing and smiling once more.  I feel comforted knowing that he's probably still watching our family and will continue to.  Mostly I just feel an immense amount of gratitude for a knowledge that I have that life continues and goes on beyond this life and world.  That an eternity awaits us in heaven and that a great reuniting will take place another day.  With such unwavering faith in this principle alone, my grief feels manageable.  Love you, David!

Saturday, February 4, 2012

Wyatt's Baptism

Sometimes it is so frustrating that on the most important days, where I would love to have thousands of pictures, I never have many.  It is just because I am so caught up in living in the moment, I forget.  But at least we caught a few of Wyatt before his baptism.  And even though we didn't get family shots, everyone looked super cute.